Robot.

Hi. My name is Jennifer. I am 15 years old. I love to dance and I like to sing. And I'm falling in love with acting. I just want to give up dancing. But anyway, I always love being alone. But sometimes, I love hanging out with my friends, of course. I'm a big time blogger. I always express my thoughts to my online diary. But who cares, btw? 

I'm just an ordinary girl living my life to the fullest. I treasure every moment of my life. I smile always. I don't want to be sad. I love God. I love my family and some of my friends. Boys are disgusting for me. I used to be an in love teenager but not anymore. I want to focus on my dreams, you know, I will make my dreams come true. I will let it happen. And I know God will guide me. 

I am positive in any way. Sometimes, I am negative but I can pull it off. I can still handle my own problems. But if it's too much already, I just need someone to talk to, yeah. And maybe ask for an advice.

I have siblings. Their names are, Haylie, Kris, Jo, Katie and Jillian. Yes we're all girls. But I am only close to my sister Jo. We shared a lot of things in common, yes. And whenever I have problems or something that really bothers me, she's the one I always talk to. I love all of my sisters, yes. But no words can describe how I really love my sister Jo. 

I have group of friends, but I don't think they don't accept me for who I am. And it's not really nice. I mean, do they need to tell you to change something on your attitude just because they don't like it? What the hell? Sorry but your reason is not valid. If you are my true friend, you'll accept me for who I am. And by the way, why did I took your advice to change this or that attitude? I mean, I have my own life. And that's the PRECIOUS thing that God gave me and why should I let somebody else try to handle it? This is something stupid.

I just hate that scenario.

Sometimes, when I'm all alone, I always think of happy thoughts and sometimes not-so-good thoughts. I easily lose hope but later, will end up being positive. I'm being dramatic sometimes. And I always find myself talking to myself. Sounds crazy. And sometimes I feel like hurting somebody, pushing people away and such. I think I have bipolar disorder. That is not good.

Either way, it's none of your business. Yeah.

By the way, thanks for reading this. I love you big time. :)

I'm like the robot with no friends. But with feelings. 

Too tired to function.

This is weird. At all.


I really don't know what to say. Haha. I'm sorry. But seriously, I am bored to death right now.
Hmm, let's see what am I doing.

• Listening to Big Time Rush.
• Chatting with Viktor who I met from Omegle. He's nice that's why we're still talking :)
• Twitter.
• And writing this blog post.

Dang it! I am bored to death. I think I need to go out and have fun. Go anywhere. But I can't.


And lately, I've been feeling lonely and all. Hopeless. Ugh. Do I have a bipolar disorder? I think so. Uh-oh.


Anyway, I really don't know what to say anymore. I'm too tired to function. Eww.

For the first time. Again.

This blog is dramatic that I don't know. Never mind.


Last May 04, 2011 - It was the day that my sister, Karla went home for after how many months and a year. So we all felt excited, of course, consider happy. We're almost complete in the family for the first time again. 


Then May 07, 2011 - It was the day that my other sister, Kathleen went home from Cebu. And this was the day that officially, Branzuela family was complete! Wow. And I thought that it became more chaos in the house. But I love the atmosphere. It's not that kind of boring anymore.

Kathleen, Karla, Mom, Koleen and I. (May 07, 2011)

I just love the fact that those were the days that we are complete actually until now. But Kathleen's gone, she went back to Cebu last May 26. It was sad. Then who's next? Karla, she'll be leaving for Manila this coming Sunday. And then Monday, she'll be flying to Dubai already. Awwwww :(


I will never ever forget this Summer Year. It was wild yet unforgettable. 


I'll miss this. You know. :)


I'd still remember, during Papa's birthday. We ate dinner outside, at Chowking. That was fun. My sister Karla shared so many things about Dubai. And taking pictures, and everything. I loved it.


Wow. I can't believe I'm gonna say this, but I did really miss my sisters. And I am gonna missing them soon. Aww. Now, I imagine what would be the atmosphere when Karla's going back to Dubai. Ugh. Could they please extend their vacation here? Uh-oh. :|


But I am so thankful that God gave this opportunity, this moment. :D


Okay, enough. That's all. I'll be missing them, yeah. And I just can't wait for next Summer. Yeah right. :D

Too much syndrome.

The past few weeks, I've been really obsessed with Big Time Rush. I don't know why, I'm not that really obsessed with them the first day I saw them on Tv. But I've been a fan ever since they started. But I don't get it why lately, I've been really obsessed with them. Oh no. 


It came to the point that-- My Twitter background is Big Time Rush. I've been watching their videos on Youtube. Downloaded Season 1 of Big Time Rush. I almost cried (exagge huh?) because I missed some episodes of Season 2 on Nickelodeon, but good thing I found some on Youtube (Thank you YT!). I've been flooding Kendall, Logan, Carlos and James's Twitter. Downloaded ALL of their songs. My phone's profile name is, BTR SWΔG. Sounds crazy, I know. But yeah. Too much syndrome. Or Big Time Rush syndrome. 


I don't know. Last month, I'm obsessed with the House of Anubis gang. I even dreamt of them. Like I am part of the cast. I am Nina's long lost sister (Nathalia Ramos's character), I know sounds really weird. Like super. Maybe I'm just being a die-hard fan. Ha ha.


Oh! Not only House of Anubis gang. Also Big Time Rush. Oh come on. Well, I dreamt that I am one of the cast also. And then during break time on shooting, we went to Katelyn Tarver's dressing room. Katelyn was doing a Ustream (See? I could still remember.), while I, Erin (Sanders), Ciara (Bravo) and Big Time Rush were singing Black Eyed Peas' "Dirty Bit" and then I tried to do Will.I.Am's rap part while Logan's doing human beatbox. Then after that, we were singing Big Time Rush's "Big Time Rush". Let's see, if I could still remember. Hmmm.. Well, then after an hour, (this sounds funny) I even introduced one of the common games of Pinoys which is "Daisy Apple". Insert laughing emoticon here. And then I taught them how to play that game, and we tried. We had fun! And I'd still remember, Kendall said, "I gotta love this game!". 


Oh my goodness. That sounds so weird and funny. But yeah, it was awesome though. 


I guess too much of being a die-hard fan of Big Time Rush already. Uh-oh. Hahahaha.


Remember my post about Justin Bieber's concert in Manila? If so, remember I even mentioned the boys there. I said, if Big Time Rush will have their tour in Manila, I'd swear I'll go and watch & see them live! And I even promise that I'll buy VIP tickets. Bwahahahaha! Am I going insane or what?  Anyway...


And recently, they've been traveling place to place because they're having a tour. And I thought, "Can I just fly to USA right now? And stalk them wherever they go?". Isn't that too possible to happen? Unless, I have lots of money. Right? Ha ha. ;)


Last week, they're already done filming for Season 2. And they all felt so sad. But on the other side, there will be a 3rd season of the series. And I am way too excited. This is gonna be awesome. Thank you Nickelodeon and Scott Fellows. :D


And I remember, while I was watching their live performance on MTV Live. Mom asked me a question, well here it goes:


Mama: Sino yan sila Kai? (Who are they, Kai?)
Me: Big Time Rush.
Mama: Yan yung kalaban ni Bieber? (Is that Bieber's rival?)
Me: NO!
Mama: Ahhhhh.


Like what the? Hahahaha. Though I haven't seen BTR and Bieber getting along with each other, but I don't think they're rivals. :D


Anyway, just bare with me guys. I know you love them also. Ha ha.


FAN GIRL MODE ON. 

I do believe in fairies.

Today was such a nice day. And I thank God for that. Yes.


First thing I did in the morning, went to our practice with Karla and Chryslene. And it was actually a short-time practice. I don't even know why. But at least, I had fun talking to these girls. Pancit Canton & Pineapple juice treat for lunch. And I thank you Karla for that.


Right after that, we went to Robinsons Place GenSan because Chryslene and Paolo had their date. While I and Karla had our date also, but not literally. Actually, she asked me if I can accompany her then I told her "sure". And then we went to National Bookstore, she bought a journal notebook for herself. Of course.


And then we went home. I had fun with them.


So I got home. First thing I did as soon as I got home earlier this afternoon, I turned on the laptop and checked Twitter and my mail. Then I got bored, I decided to take a nap. So, I took a nap for like 30 minutes. And then suddenly, I remembered Big Time Rush! So I rushed downstairs, grabbed the Tv remote and switched it on Nickelodeon. But unfortunately, I was kinda late. Hah. Too bad for me. But it's okay, at least I've watched and seen my boys again. It's like I'm not watching their videos on Youtube. I know I'm addicted to them already. Hey! You can't blame me. I know you have your own addiction as well too. Yeah?


Anyway, after that I headed to my cousin's house. We've been planning to have our House of Anubis marathon but I am so busy that I have no time to watch it with her. And then just an hour ago, we finally started it. But I can't call it marathon, we only watched episodes 1-13. Hahahahahahahaha. Don't worry, we're still going to continue watching it later in the morning since we don't have practice. So yeah. Either way, it's none of your business. 


And after we watched episodes 1-13. I shared to my cousin Jena that I really want a Macbook Pro. And I told her that I want this as a graduation gift. And then she asked, aside from Macbook Pro, what would be the second option as my graduation gift. I told her, Dio scooter. Yes. Haha.


But I don't think I can get any of these two things. Haha. Well, let's just see. :)


I don't know why suddenly I've been obsessed with Macbook Pro. BUT I DO REALLY WANT IT! :(


Ahuh, I do believe in fairies! I do! I do! Lol.


And oh btw, I want that Macbook Pro 15 inch one. Yes. Thank you. :)


Good night! Xoxo, Kikay. ♥

Bad Vibes.

Every night is my schedule for washing the dishes. But tonight, bad vibes men! I was about to wash the dishes, suddenly I noticed my rosary bracelet is not on my wrist. AND there! I panicked, freaked out and ALL. Though it's not mine, but it's very important to me! Of course. Before I sleep, I always pray. And every time I pray, I always hold the cross at my rosary bracelet. And by that,  I can feel and I know God is listening to me. 

Now what? It's missing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(((

OH PLEASE HELP ME! 

Now, let's see the flashback-- I took a bath. But before that, I took off my clothes, of course. Then I took off the dream catcher that I was wearing and at the same time I took off my rosary bracelet. So it took an hour I guess, to take a bath. Then before I went out of the bathroom, of course! I did get the ROSARY BRACELET and dream catcher. So, after that I was still holding it. Then I went to our bedroom. I hanged the dream catcher but unfortunately, I can't remember where I last put my rosary bracelet. OH NO! THIS ISN'T GOOD! :(((((

BAD VIBES ALL THE WAY DUDE! WTF :| =((((((((((((((

But I'm not gonna give up! I'll still find it. It's very important! Of course. 

Lord, I am really sorry. I know I was being careless. I should have remember where I put it. But too bad, I can't. I am really sorry Lord. :(

Guys, please help me by praying. I know it'll help. Thank you. :)

Still bad vibes.

Outlook for the Year.

I find it quiet interesting. So I just want to share it. :)

Pig Overview

You have the privilege of being the luckiest animal during the Year of the Metal Rabbit. It's about time! Last year might have been a bit hectic. However, all that planning and patience has finally paid off. You deserve the break, Pig. Short of multimillion dollar lottery winnings and total world domination, 2011 should bring many things to be thankful for. I'll bet you're nice and settled in a fulfilling career, a satisfied relationship, and a happy home. If not, those things are probably on their way. Remember to share you successes with the ones you love. Keep striving for inner balance and self-acceptance. Internalize the goodness around you and know you deserve it.

Pig Rating

82% (12 favorable months)

Pig Career

The world is your brunch buffet. Have you tried everything yet? Feel free to feast on all the flavors you can this year when it comes to your professional life. Perhaps you'll finally make strides in the work you've always wanted to do. Lifelong dreams can be realized this year so reach for yours with confidence. Have you written the next great American novel? Discovered a cure for cancer? Composed a symphony? Don't be surprised if your efforts are greatly rewarded. You've waited a long time for this. Enjoy the well-deserved recognition.

Pig Relationships

You might feel like you finally know the meaning of domestic bliss in 2011. You and the Rabbit are of the same affinity group, Rabbit-Goat-Pig, so relationships will probably be harmonious this year. Marriage, moving in together, or babies could be part of the equation. Are you ready? Make sure you've worked out all the kinks in your relationship before you set things in stone. If you're single, you might meet a special someone with lasting potential this year. Relationships started now could be very favorable, so be prepared to mingle.

Pig Health

With all the excitement going on, don't forget to take care of your health this year. If you're a typical Pig, you might be tempted to overindulge, especially in celebration of good things. This could wreak havoc on your digestive system, to be good to your body. Nurture it with plenty of fruits, veggies, whole grains, and vitamins. Eat organic whenever possible. Drink plenty of water. You'll need strength and stamina to get through this year. Make sure you don't tax your system by having too good of a time!

Pig Wealth

Your hard work during the year of the Tiger should bring money your way in 2011. There will be several occurrences of Triple Metal days -- where the element of the year, month, and day all match. Since Metal is the element most closely affiliated with wealth, you might see your bank account get a boost. Not only that, a few Triple Rabbit days could be favorable for you since you're in the same affinity group as this year's animal. Make a list of things you want to buy, do, or see that will cost money. Figure out how many things are feasible and put away the money now. There should be enough to go around.

You can also check yours! Here: Outlook for the Year. Btw, I'm year of the Pig. So that's why. And I only like the "Pig Overview", "Pig Career" and "Pig Wealth". :)

Well, I love the result of my Outlook for the Year 2011. A lot of positive vibes are on my way thru the year. Oh well. But I don't know if this is really true. I mean, let's just see. Right? Who knows? :)